Reflections on medicine, faith, and becoming.
I’m a medical student learning that healing begins long before diagnosis. This space gathers my reflections on growth, faith, and the human anatomy of resilience.
I used to think the point of a test was to pass and move on. Now I know the point of a test is to become someone who carries the…
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The first week of medical school didn’t feel like a beginning. It felt like walking back into the same storm I once prayed to escape — only this time, the…
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The impending MCAT hangs ominously overhead, transforming a once-familiar learning space into an interrogation-like testing center, amplifying anxiety. Amid a month of Ramadan’s introspection and resilience, the narrator grapples with…
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Field Note23.11.2025
We live in a strange age… Courteous in public, careless in private, disciplined under watchful eyes yet undone the moment we’re truly seen. In class we measure our tone, with friends we soften our edges, at work we mold ourselves around expectations; yet at home, we let every restraint collapse. A man who would never raise his voice in a crowded room will raise it at his mother; a woman who wouldn’t speak out of turn to a supervisor will dismiss her father or brother. We reserve our best manners for those who evaluate us, promote us, or validate us, and offer the bare minimum, and even gross neglect, to the people God entrusted to us. And the strangest hypocrisy is this: we avoid inappropriate words or actions in front of others, yet commit them casually in the plain sight of the One whose gaze never leaves us. Public discipline is performance; private discipline is faith. The choices we make when no one else is watching remain the clearest portrait of who we’ve allowed ourselves to become.
I write from the fault line where ambition, faith, and endurance push against each other. Medicine is the craft I train in, but meaning is the curriculum I return to. Every test, every conversation, every mercy disguised as difficulty shapes the same aim: to become someone steady in exhaustion, honest in hardship, and useful in the quiet battles no transcript will ever show...
11.11–18. 2025
When your heart is alive, you are always living in the present time.
— Ibn ʿAta Allah al-Iskandari
I welcome thoughtful conversation. Share what moved you, or what you’ve learned in your own season of testing.
Chasing truth in struggle and stillness.
